it's been a full year since gumpai "graduated" and i'm still not okay. genuinely struggling with it.

she'd hop in vc after her 9-5, open mic so everyone could talk/chill/share about our day, real back-and-forth, not muted like most VTubers do. it felt like we were actually part of her life. then at night the sleep calls, her just being there until we all passed out.

sharing pics (she'd react and comment genuinely), getting horny together on discord for free. she'd even save our nudes in her special folder like it was casual fun. more real interaction than any of my irl exes or fiancée ever gave. people hate her, she was a terrible person and retarded in a lot of ways, but she was fucking fun. never a boring day with her around.

most gfe stuff is paywalled behind fansly tiers, she was the only one who kept it free and real in the group space. she did create a fansly near the end of her run because some viewers asked for it as a side thing, but it was unrelated to what she gave on discord, she made way more from throne anyway.

elfin was the closest i found: edgy, spoke her mind, joined open vc with viewers, even sexted some privately. but she still acted more like a normal vtuber (not fully open and horny with everyone there), so it never felt as judgment-free as gumpai's space where you could just be horny or show love for her without getting called out or feeling weird about it. i don't need an exact clone, just someone with even a fraction of that free/intimate/no-shame energy. any indies out there kind of similar, or recommendations?

not bait or drama, just venting after a year of this and hoping to find people who get it, miss her too, or have found something that comes close. itt: share your thoughts.