>>109934205only barely related, but i only recently learned that my oshi had a crush on me a while back, and i would've had the chance if i wasn't already seeing someone at the time. i'm still with my girlfriend now, and i love her, but this information is super fucking with me. i know it's a scumbag thing to be concerned with two girls who both care for monogamy. i'm close with both, but since they're both the subjects of my issue, i have no one to talk to about this. not even my therapist, because they like me too much and i don't want to disappoint her either. sorry for blogrambling you should probably ban me, i just needed to get it out of my system.