>>76561472That's pretty much what the breakdown was over.
She said that most people get to go into new encounters at 0, a fresh start. But due to all of her baggage and how notorious she is thanks to Niji, she starts at -50. Yeah she sometimes makes progress towards -40, and that's objectively better than she was before, but then she slips back to -45 and it feels like nothing she does ever mattered in the first place.
