>>32581360Believe it or not but this isn't meaningless work. I am putting food on the table for myself with this. I enjoy writing. I don't care about being published, I just wish to enjoy the moment. Somehow. This is fun. In some fucked up ways, I am enjoying putting myself through this. It feels special.
I haven't read a book in 4-5 years. I bought some recently but I don't ever get bored enough to read them. I am way past the self reflection stage, I did 3 years of that. I have no willpower, I don't have the ability to hold myself back. Moderation is a myth to me. I don't buy sugary treats ever because otherwise I'd eat them up in one sitting. I starve myself to keep a proper BMI, that was the only solution I could find to this problem. But I can't do that to my phone. I can't do that to the internet. So long as it's there, I'm plugged up.
That's why. The woods.
But that's just a dream eh. Fantasy. Schizo talk. Now if you excuse me, I have to finish these last couple hundred words before I am too tired to keep my eyes open without them burning.
