>>50684120Don't force yourself bro, that's not how it works. You don't find your oshi, your oshi finds you.
Continue to follow Polka's streams and activities, and eventually you'll find out if you really love her. It just comes naturally.
But at the same time, please give Haachama some time too. Do you see yourself being relieved and feeling happy again when she returns? If yes, hold on to that hope.
