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Since we're all blogposting itt, I dated a girl and fell in love with her. I moved and changed jobs to be with her. You know the story; cheats on me then ghosts me soon afterwards. Point is, that turned me off to relationships for good, I reckon. It doesn't make sense to put your eggs in a basket you don't know exists. It wasn't her cheating that hurt me the most, it was my own blind trust in another human. Humans are untrustworthy. Even old friends can change and betray. So it doesn't make sense to trust in the first place. Just take what you can and mind your own business. You can enjoy someone's company, but don't get attached to them. They can and will turn on you. I personally don't even date anymore because the knowledge of how fickle humans are turns me off completely from them. If I was delusional enough to play the game I could enjoy relationships again, and still maintain detachment to where it wouldn't hurt to let them go (I actually did this a few times after the girl I loved). But that delusion itself has become unappealing. It's like convincing yourself the shit your eating is curry, just so you can savor the taste of said imagined curry. Technically possible, but why eat shit in the first place? So I don't, I just work on my goals and avoid bothering others, and in turn hope they don't bother me. When I need to trick my brain into thinking it's getting social interaction I do the bare minimum, thank God for chuubas. I'm biased but I think people rely too much on others to feel good about themselves. You can still live well without focusing so much on a relationship, whether it's romantic or platonic. Your brain will crave it eventually, then you can dabble in it, but getting caught up in it and letting it dictate your time, your mood, your status/ego, and life, is excessive.
