>>23990419Nope she's implying she thought she would be dead or killed herself by the time she ever reaches 30 or her current age. Which I can understand, when I was 13 I told myself to at least wait till I was 18 to kill myself because I could move out then and not get beat the shit out of every day by parents. Even planned it out too. I would go to the bayou, overdose on strong ass painkillers my stepmom had, then slit my throat amd cut the veins in my arms if I could and throw myself in. If one thing didn't kill me, the other stuff would.
Here I am at 25, still alive, and spending my life with a shit ton of guns, doing ok, and watching an anime rabbit.
