>>43714648I was in a daycare facility around kindergarten age, a group of 3 girls would bully me daily, one day their ringleader threatened to tie me to the slide with a jump rope, and for some ungodly reason I acted like I would hate it and begged they wouldn't do it and spit on me while I was subdued, knowing somewhere in my preadolescent brain that they absoluetly would after I planted the idea in their heads. They did and I enjoyed it almost as much as their "ringleader", who I suspect was the one with a crush on me did. To this day I blame this on my femdom fetish, and that is almost as concerning as the fact that as a child around 5 years old I not only knew what I wanted but knew how to manipulate her to achieve it. I don't expect you to believe me but I have no reason to lie to you and am almost as confesed as you are as to how a literal child with no fetish expierence would immedeately jump to fulfilling that sort of twisted desire.I regret nothing, but am baffled to this day as to how that happens. Makes me think "tabula rasa" is all bullshit and either there is a clear and inescapable component to human behavior or something akin to a "soul" exists. And that isn't even the most fetishistically charged event of my childhood.
