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I love Fauna.
I watched a lot of different tubers, but never have I ever felt like this with one before. I would usually leave them as background noise, not give them my undivided attention. I would member if I liked what I listened to, sure, but I wouldn't even have dreamed of superchatting them, and that's exactly what I do with Fauna without even feeling bad.
I can listen to Fauna talk about anything, from games she likes, to her fellow Hololive members, to different types of roaches, to even dishwashing maintenance. She can even talk about vegan food, which I have absolutely no interest in, and it'd leave a smile on my face all the way through. Just hearing her enjoy things activates something in my brain that just makes me enjoy it too.
There is something fucking mystical about her voice, it makes me feel warm and safe. She doesn't even have to say it but just listening to her makes me feel like everything is going to be all right. Heck, just minor things like the way she sometimes breathes out in frustration soothes me. And don't even get me started on her singing! I know it's not great, but every single part of my brain but the one that acknowledges that it's not great just yells "HAHA FUCK THAT IDIOT THIS IS GREAT, HAVE FUN AND CHEER HER ON!" It's strange and weird but I really don't hate it. I also do not have the hugs she gives. I didn't expect to be able to feel them, but I really do.
I'm not going to say she's perfect, but even if she's not, she has a hold on me hard enough that I can just forgive any transgressions. I just want to watch her. She makes my shitty days so much better, to the point where I'm not even sure if I deserve the happiness she gives. When she doesn't stream I genuinely miss her, and my mood somewhat tanks, though other Holo streams tend to at least soften the blow... I try to stay positive because I can't let this control me but it just doesn't work... But I will absolutely treasure all these moments with her.
