>>12859567This was cope and a defense mechanism. “Haha it’s all fake guys”. Well it sure as fuck feels real to me, and that scares me. It scares me how excited I get for Kiki’s streams. It scares me how warm I feel when I get to interact with her in chat. A couple days ago when she mentioned going to the doctor and being scared, I prayed for the first time in years. The thought of hurting Kiki makes me sad and leaves a sour feeling in my stomach. I was too embarrassed to admit that I’ve legitimately fallen in love with Kiki.
