>>37079075>>37079412>>37080152>>37081695>>37082580>>37084182>>37084378as one of her mods that went absolutely insane for the past couple months from her parasocial antics, I can tell you it looks like she hasn't learned her lesson from it. instead it seems she'd rather run away from it (above all else she HATES conflict), and I can't see any other reason why she started streaming less and less besides her schooling. she's even told me she didn't want something like that to happen again (yet here she is pandering to the most insufferable viewers in her chat.)
I fell so hard into the parasocial trap, it got to the point where I even considered her my friend, I started talking to her a bit more, asked her to play games and showed her art WIPS, but even despite all that it felt one sided. After a while I just snapped, I confronted her about how I felt and said things that caused both parties to be hurt (I'm not a great person.) I then decided to step down from mod and have myself banned from her twitch/discord to try prevent myself from attacking her and her friends further. Didn't help obviously, some of you might know about my insane threats I made to Gutsybird on here, or when I invaded her stream on an alt account to insult her personally. Of course I'm not proud of what I've done, and I still feel anger towards myself to this day. In the time of my absence I was hoping she would settle down on the parasocial but it just seems like she turned it up a notch which is just unfortunate.
