>>90117647I just keep fighting. The why is a combination of intense love mixed with spite for those who have wronged me and the people I have love for. As long as I have one of these things, this love, or this spite, I must persist. I must continue to grow stronger so that I can provide good things to my loved ones and to fight off the people that try to harm us. You have to be strong anon, you have to be undefeatable. Embrace all pain, internalize it, fuel yourself with it. You will win and when the time comes for you to receive your karmic reward for your persistence through the love of beauty and hatred of evil, you will be unstoppable.