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I will post this while everyone is distracted by the schizos
Mori's Pricunny song has made me realize that she truly is a hard worker, to a huge fault. And it's the main thing that finally realize that I'm truly a Deadbeat. And yet I hate it. Because it means I know I will get hurt again. But I think I'm starting to realize that maybe I really truly need to believe in myself. I always have this fear that I'll turn into some sort of unironic purityfag, but maybe that was just an excuse I kept telling myself so I wouldn't risk anything. So I could just be safe forever doing absolutely nothing. Funny how the song is called Where I Belong because the big reason why I've been fearing crossing the threshold is because I'll be afraid of losing of where I am now. If people found out that I was an unironic idolfag, I'd be cast out and drifting alone once again. Maybe this is my own wake up call that I've been essentially denying who I am all this time. It was all excuses not to move forward. I really do not have nothing to lose going in this direction as I don't have anything. I guess in the end, I was ultimately and idolfag.
