>>77325792Your pic reminded me of the inevitable end of Phase Connect, one day I'll open Youtube and I won't see any of the faces I've grown so used to, all of this will be nothing but a memory happy yet distant memory. I don't want it to end, I think part of my frustration towards the girls comes from a genuine fear, getting too invested into them and then getting my heart torn to shreds once it's all over. I dislike events like Offkai because it feels like I'm missing out on time and experiences I could have with my oshi, but actually engaging with them makes me more scared of the future.
I've been really selfish lately, a horrible fan, I think I should be a bit kinder. sorry for blogposting, the thoughts caught me off guard
