>>46867738top kek, that made me laugh honestly.
The spiritual alchemy or the mental self-development don't require that though .
Anyways I won't sugarcoat it, most people going into these kind of eccentric paths either go schizo, end up content and deluded believing shitty spiritual fast food garbage (or lost because it's quite hard to dive into the garbage with no idea and find the actual good shit), or cave eventually against the huge weight of their own suffering. Seen a few of these happen personally.
But regardless, it's an option for someone who will never be a normalfag.
Anyways practice mediation, self-introspection, therapy if you luckshit the fuck out of an actually good therapist (rare but possible), exercise if you can, see where that puts you and re-evaluate from there.
