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Her giggle is worth a thousand ara aras to me.
I know its unhealthy but her streams and seeing what she has in store next are the only things I ever look forward too. I really did try to not get attached, but her persona is the literally what I did not know I wanted in both a friend and life partner. During her streams I can almost forget my physical ailments and the emotional pain fades a bit too.
Its just a deep seated emotional attraction that I have trouble coping with. I thought I could be content with the retarded numb shell I put around myself, she shattered that by just being the kind, intilligent and genuinely hilarious person she is.
I'll never say any of this where she might read it though, I'll keep my parasocial autism under wraps and send the occasial nice superchat to keep supporting her. I want her to always be happy and content even if I can't.
