>>3544260>be born a crack baby>get diagnosed with autism, mild mental retardation and some shitncalled psychotic disorder>due to this I couldn't talk until I was about 5>pretty much had a shitty family, except my grandmother who practically raised me by herself>always had gotten bullied in grade school and couldn't fight back because my mind wouldnt allow me to and let myself almost get my neck broken by some kid in biys restroom>went through like 3 schools due to bullying and the third one I started to lash out and instigate fights with students myself because I couldn't properly cope or fight back against people who fucked with me before then>as a result I became an asshole for all of 8th grade>the few times I did fight back all of the teachers and principals shamed me for it and would write me up for it>high school was pretty much a step up though I only managed to make one friend that lasted a bit outside of high school but he got married to some chick who already kids>had a gf inhighschool but she was only with me out of pity, the moment she asked me out I knew but went with it anyways so i could experience what a relationship was like before I graduated early>though I was too socially retarded in highschool to make friends so I always kept to myself and wandered around the campus during lunch hour>made some online "friends" but they never really lasted and some would immediately smell out that I was weak and fucked with and I wound up just taking it>go through college and outside of small talk with a few people and even managed to talk to a girl and got her phone number I never really did anything with in the end>too retarded to have formed any kind of connections in college>tfw 25Admittedly I've fucked up and done a few retarded things myself that I havent mentioned above but regardless all of these things show me that I rightfully deserve to be alone and have no friendd
