I think if you're honest with yourself you'll acknowledge this is her wish and she needs it. Hololive never fulfilled all her dreams, and she wishes she could've done more -- but it's just that, wishes.
Just get it out somehow. Read some books, watch some Anime, listen to some songs, watch some epic plays -- anything to help you probe and increase your understanding of human stories and emotion.
Use some sea shanties. They're surprisingly good for dealing with loss.
Ubisoft hired some great talent when they recorded shanties.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCtn6igpgP4&list=RDC4X06KT8Bj0&index=2 