>>81931201>yesterday was my real anniversary>my secret goal for this year was to get partner before my 2yr anniversary >and it happened the day before!!!>kinda decided i would stop focussing on streaming after summer and slowly stop...>not quit but stop treating streaming as a priority>so much has happened this summer... >i really didnt believe in myself and->oh my god i feel like im about to cry>i didnt believe that i would actually get anywhere and for the longest time->not to say that partner i the biggest accomplishment on the planet, im still a nobody>honestly i feel way more motivated to work hard now and to actually do stuff>i was thinking to myself, man what are my goals now? and i wan to work hard>i never believed in myself i always felt like i was kinda here and i was trying to be in a space where i felt i didnt really belong >you know what i mean> there's so much talent in this space and incredible people and i just felt like i didnt deserve to be here>it's all been proven wrong and im very happy>...i cannot usually accomplish things *sniffles* uuuuuu and i dont you know>and i am able to i guess... can i say it? ...stand alongside these people.. i feel this is talking too highly of myself >im just happy that im allowed to accomplish such cool things too>im happy that i can do cool things too >i feel so incredibly lucky i didnt expect to be here at all and feel so happy that i was able to accomplished everything i wanted>everything i wished for as actually come true, it's actually insane to me, i feel so lucky...>thank you so much for you support >this is not an accomplishment i did by myself, this is something we did together>thank you for allowing me to get to the place i am now *hugs the mic*>it sounded like someone tried to open my door... that snapped me out of almost crying immediately... that scared me so bad...>thank you for believing in me, thank you for talking about me to your friends and supporting me and watching me and coming back to my streams >i dont think you understand how touching it is to have people come to every single one of your streams for weeks or months or even years>how are you guys not bored of me?>i feel undeserving of your kindness...that was part of the ultimatum too huh
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