>>56774941I'm the anon you replied to and yeah! That's exactly what I've been thinking. That's also why I've been feeling bad for the Kindred that left. Felt like he was sort of leading them on in a way, you know? But looking at it from his POV, he was in a position where a lot of money was coming in and he was able to move to a new place because of it, get medication, and take better care of himself, so of course anyone would want to keep going if it's getting them money. That, combined with him having trouble saying no and not having any meds so he really enjoyed the attention and validation he got from doing it. I know all too well what that's like, so I also sympathize with him in that way. I know he would never actually think this but a part of me does feel that sort of "oh I've got your money now, I can do whatever the fuck I want now" from him, but I do trust that he knows deep down that he has himself to blame for not doing this earlier and that he still enjoys doing it to provide escapism and fanservice to a group that doesn't normally get it. If you remember from that one talk he had with everyone. During the first time he had to address a serious situation. Even during that time when he was under so much pressure. When everyone, even his own Kindred were against him, he still said "no, I'm not going to stop doing BFE just because of the actions of a few." that's when i decided to trust him. It would have been so easy to say that he would stop doing that and take back his word later but no, he stood up to those vile dramafags and antis and said he'll still cater to the people that don't get catered to. That's why I trust that he was never in it for just the money.
I don't fault you for leaving whenever you did or for whatever reason, I think everyone has the right to move on to whoever they please. It's a shame things turned out this way, but I hope you're happy now if you have a new oshi! I still can't find it in me to leave him no matter how much I say I want to move on. I've been with him for over a year now, so it's like breaking up with an actual partner, one I've never really had before. Not like this at least. No one is like him, not even close.
I really do feel like he's an actual partner to me sometimes because we both have our own journeys that we're getting through together. 