>>50475769There's this specific kind of hate that I have to the point of obsessing over it. It's also the reason that I hate Oshi no ko or idol/vtuber in general.
There's this figure right? like Suisei. The more I know her, the more I adore her, and also the more I want to get to know her. Then it developed into I want her.
You don't do that to figure like that, she wants to be loved and can make you fell/love for her but you shouldn't ever expect to get anything in return. That's the start, but the one thing that is ABSOLUTELY I hate is that there will be a person that she wanted to genuinely love for herself that is NOT me. And there's NOTHING I can do to be that person, nor stopping it for happening. And when people that does drastic measure to prevent it, the figure/idol itself would think that "I'm a human too, am I not allowed to be happy?"
I can never justifies spending supacha since it really doesn't do anything to me (I bought merchendise since I do get something in the form of object)
I really don't know what else to describe this, but I really really hate this feeling.
Just a rant, so take it as you will. Also my Suisei nendo just arrived, she cute.
