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I kinda wish I could talk to people about how none of actually enjoy the style of shitposting on /vt/ anymore in seriousness.
But OH NO, ITS A THREAD, SO ITS A BAIT THREAD! It isn't, but of course if I was making meta ironic bait thread it'd still look like this, and you'll assume it's shitposting. I know because I do that too, it's the game we all play.
But it also means the I can't talk about how genuinely physically ill it makes me feel to open the catalog and practically physically feel myself dropping into the proverbial trench /vt/ has turned itself into through thoughtless repetitiveness. Every single drama is jumped on because after scaring away the people involved people falseflag as them and then people who don't care falseflag as people attacking them and then falseflag the otherside and so on, looping until nobody involved in a 200+ post count thread is even aware of what they're even talking about.
And then we all say we're here forever and we mean it, but then when confronted we all pretend it isn't true, and yet we haven't gone a day without visiting this board. But of course now you want to say otherwise, but not based on wanting to say the truth, but because of a pavlovian response to contradict it to restart one of few dozen preset timeloops.
But no matter how cynical we get, or how well we perform this dumb anonymous massive multiplayer online LARP simulator, the intense quasi-cultural pressure against believing or respecting posts here even if made in good faith, compounded with pressure against actually considering ones genuine feelings about a topic before posting(let alone keeping your engagement locked to the vtuber content you actually consume) offers no way for actual conversation to claw it's way out of this bizarre brain-dead spiral. It's gotten so bad that people can get so deep in the meta that most of their posts here will be literal regurgitations with no bearing at all to either their interests nor to the actual topic of the thread.
I know it because it's the game we all play. We want to be that guy that gets to call OP a faggot. We don't even think it's cool or meaningful most times, we just know that the script we follow is something we have. It's not that we're even addicted at this point, it's more like we're addicted to believing that we're addicted, but we have no breathing room to break the cycle.
So we go on. We spend all day here feeling nauseated. The script is so seared into our mind that even being here causes that persistent nausea and hopeless apathy, and the rage or memes never help because inside we know they're fake too. And yet we can't leave. Because that's not ironic enough. It's not "what you do", so we come back every day and dump more and more poison while submerging ourselves in it, making us sicker and sicker, without every really knowing why.
Yes, mucho texto, OP is a faggot, I didn't read, your reply must be as short as possible. Maybe some of you will be on the part of the script where you LARP as a normalfag, and you'll bait by talking about some sort of me tal health recommendation that we both know you are only saying because that style of LARP and the contents of your posts are in the script.
The ones who ignore it are the ones who are the ones who haven't fully succumbed, but even then, we all remember being them once. And we know that their descent is only a matter of time.
Is this post serious? Is it bait? Is it me wanting to cry about it? Am I going to samefag to call myself a faggot? What do I actually mean and what does that mean to you and why is it like that, and so on, and so on...but it doesn't matter. Even if you read all of this, you're still gonna post as if you didn't. I can see it now. The most lucky outcome is 0 replies before it dies, after all.
We are in hell, all because we trained ourselves to ignore the consequences of our actions on the state of our soul. Or any consequences. The script is all that matters. I wonder if one day this feeling of disgust at what we've let ourselves will become strong enough to become fatal so that the suffering can end.
