>>68453435Don't do it. It isn't worth it. Think about these things:
1. Your oshi, no matter how much you love them, is just another person, streaming to entertain fans like you. Who they are doesn't reflect who you are.
2. Life is bigger than the entertainment you consume. Please, please, please, understand that you are far more valuable than that.
3. There are people who care in some capacity, no matter how much you don't believe it's true. You will see it one day. It took me like 15 years to really believe this, even though my INTERNET FRIENDS saved me from my own attempt when I was isolated as a kid.
You have much more you can live for. Both sadness and happiness are cyclical and fleeting. Don't squander the miracle that is your life for a streamer.
