>>102499852Thanks OP, I'm in a pretty dark place. I've been trying to work on myself for a while now. I've been hitting the gym since Covid. I decided to return to school to finish my degree last year, and made a switch into a company with actual career paths instead of a dead-end job. It hasn't paid off yet, but I hope it might someday. I still sit alone in my apartment every night, and struggle to connect with people. Knowing that one of my favorite vtubers was out having a happy, loving, and fulfilling life with her now-fiance just makes me feel extremely depressed. It's like I'm never going to find the same sort of happiness and love. I feel like God wants me to be alone. Maybe there is no dorky and cute weeb girl out there for me, and there never will be. Maybe the degree doesn't end up doing anything for me. Maybe I'll be switching back to my old dead-end job in a year, because I found it more comfortable and had confidence in my ability to perform the role. Why bother feeling optimistic when I have nothing to show for my efforts so far? What if I've just been watering a dead seed this whole time?
