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This is why my wish was to become less shy.
I am always, ALWAYS, fucking late to join things. Every time. I am such a worthless sack of shit that I can't do anything until it is too late. And here we are again.
My favorite part of this community was the fact that Bea was actually part of it outside the streams. She wasn't the streamer and we weren't just viewers - it was kind of like a group of friends. I rarely replied because of my own situation but it was fun to see the community posting on twitter.
We've lost a significant member of the community if I am reading her post correctly. Straight up putting up a wall like this really hurts. There's a few other Dads I'd feel this way about too, by the way, it's not just her. But you can't just lose pillars in a community like this and expect it to be the same.
My only cope now is that maybe she'll still come to these threads because there's less pressure. It's all anon, so you can come and go as you please without really worrying about how people feel about the (You)s they are or are not receiving. But goddamn, I hate myself. Why can't I just be fucking normal and jump in on things when I want to, rather than waiting months only for it to be too late?
