>>28390590I think at some point in my life something broke inside of me
I spent most of my adolescence repressing myself and turning inward while being afraid of things outside of me
Now sometimes I wonder if I'm a husk of a human being because I'm happiest in a routine of nothingness, satisfied to sit alone doing nothing except maybe watching a stream or playing a game
And ever since my dog died of apparently spontaneous internal bleeding caused by undetected advanced stage cancer I've retracted even further into myself and now I occasionally wake up in a panic thinking something's dying
