>>83024966Okay, let's unwrap this while I'm waiting for my lunch.
Do I love her romantically? No. I'm pretty sure I would if we met but we never will.
I love her as my happy place. I accumulate a lot of stress interacting with regular people and recharge by watching vtubers. The issue is most of them eventually cause me more stress than they relieve, CC being one of the few exceptions. I am extremely grateful for that. Is this dependence? Maybe if you are going to call relying on literally any feel-good externality dependence.
She is an example of someone succeeding at doing what they like. I can relate to her in some ways so it's genuinely encouraging to see and motivated me to make positive life changes. How can I not feel deeply about the source of such changes?
My faulty brain evolved back when screens weren't a thing. As such, it's not equipped to deal with a person talking at me for hours every day over the internet and considers her a somehow close person. This, among other things, makes me root for her. Is such a misplaced affection better than being a lonely fag who doesn't support anyone? I don't know actually.
I like her content. It's too early to talk about love since she's not at her full power but I like it so far and one of the songs is particularly important for me. Idol journey is very real to me.
>aiiiiieeeeee, why did you replySometimes it's alright to sort things out for yourself.
