>>41962946Yeah I mean after I killed her I basically lost the ability to visualize and was alot less creatively minded. The main reason I regret creating a Tulpa is that when i was 'forming' her I wanted to make her as conscious and human as she could possibly be. Creating Tulpa's originates from Tibet where buddist monks would create multiple different consciousness's in their heads and the way it came to the west came from Napoleon Hill's 'Think and Grow Rich' which had a chapter where the author claimed he created Tulpas of famous businessmen and historical figures and talked with them in his head. And when the internet came about some people online talked about creating these 'Tulpas'
>>41962972Being Schizo is seeing meaning in everything, kind of like permanently being on LSD. I had a schizo uncle who had books and books of beautifully drawn sketchbooks full of the colourful geometric forms that even I see on LSD. Keep in mind I have been 'mentally blind' for years so being able to close my ears and see anything other than pitch blackness is very awesome for me.
