i want to become a cute loli vtuber but i feel like my reasonings are a bit selfish. ive never had a bf and have 0 chance of getting a bf because im quite literally horribly disfigured due to a house fire i went through when i was a bit younger so now most of my body is extremely disfigured and i look like i belong in a dark souls game. i want to for once in my life look normal or pretty so the idea of becoming a vtuber and having people like me or even have romantic feelings for me entices me. would that be selfish or wrong of me? im never going to mention how im disabled to anyone because theres no point plus vtubers dont show their real bodies and im not going to have any way to make money off of this because i receive help from the government already so all i really want is attention and to feel as though people like me and arent scared of me for once. i dont know if this will still be for sale by the time i can save up some of my checks to afford it but this is the model i really want and if i cant get it then i will use the saved up money to hopefully commission something similar. id like to know what people think about this design or something similar.
https://nizima.com/Item/DetailItem/101679 