>>98036833I know it's stupid to try to analyze a woman's decision, but I roll it over in my head. I will say, she's not my Oshi, I never had a membership very long, but I asked a lot of fans if anything seemed different leading up to Fes and nobody could consensus on anything significant. It seems like Fes was a turning point, as she seems to have skipped out when every girl (but the usual blue one) was there at the same time.
Now, based on some things she's said in previous deleted members streams, she has HUGE mommy issues and doesn't trust women at all. She's closer to Advent, but I think deep down is extremely insecure of relations with other girls and maybe even resents them. I won't project too much onto her, but I'm trying to come up with plausible reasons why she would be feeling tension with other girls, hence drifting towards homos and a "new direction" in her channel.
Furthermore....to get into some dox territory, she absolutely resents anything with ASMR, GFE, flirty stuff. She tried really hard to pretend at the start, but I'm sure it digs up bad memories for her. She stated her mother warned her that she would end up in a bad relationship with men because of this...and I think she has already. It's very ironic, and perhaps telling of a woman's behavior, that she has a fanbase of guys who love her for her personality, and want to support her, and pushes them away for loudmouth, obnoxious dudes and she probably feels justified in doing so, BASED retroactively on the response. It's a catch-22, she wants to be near guys who she feels like she doesn't have to be like a GF for, while leaning towards guys who would exploit her. I'm sure her IRL relationships would be pretty similar; ending up in abusive relationships and crawling bag to her fag male friends for support and consolation.
I'm rambling a lot here, but I think she's probably repeating her former mistakes on a grand scale here and has no idea what she wants to be doing, while possibly feeling insecure about other, more idolistic girls and fleeing to unlikeable dudes because she doesn't like playing a "fake" person. Which is truly ironic - as a Vtuber, you control his you present yourself outside of the virtual body. If you have impostor syndrome and think people only like the "fake" you, that is solely on you and how you present yourself.
