>>59495543I can't stop schizing out over wondering if I fucked up and said something that upset Kiki and she put me in the "Not Husband" bucket where she doesn't let herself get emotionally invested because I'm not worth it. Then I really am just sitting here by myself in a one sided parasocial relationship. I thought maybe nini posting was annoying because any time I did it she ignored it, and that's okay, but then other people do it and she cutely responds to them and there wasn't a problem with nini posting at all it was just a problem with me. Does it silently gross her out when I post husband things too, like "eew not you"? Every day I wake up next to Kikidaki and I can't even say "I love you" I just hug her and say "I'm sorry" and what if even the hugging is nod okay? I'm just a parasite leeching off of the love she feels for someone else. Sometimes she posts vocaroos and I listen to them and instead of feeling like a call from my wife it feels like I'm a creep eavesdropping on someone else's conversation.
