>>59302277Well, things have been mostly staying the same for the past 5 years for me. Things just got more downhill around 2017 iirc when i started getting chronic wrist pain as well (used to be only in my knees, back hips and whatever else), then my first cat got blind in january 2018 and passed away dec 31st. I still had my second to take care of and got a new cats and then other cats for that cat as i still had some hope things could get better, but i ran out of copium.
Its mostly an issue of the constant noise in my currrent apartment stressing me the fuck out and finding a new place not going anywhere because of the cats and i need to move before i can properly take care of finding a therapist for my depression and social anxiety, so im just kinda stuck at trying to find a new place and losing more and more energy and patience to keep going with all the bullshit.
Thats basically why depression/social anxiety keeps getting the better of me lately. Its not that ive just given up, in fact ive been taking better care of my health the past three months than probably ever in my life by eating properly, which i havent done in years, but it didnt help one bit. Really makes me wonder why even bother at this point, but i shut up. This has gotten way too long again and ive been enough of a doomer lately. Also, i need to take my meds/vitamins already.
