>>14930300I never really cared much for friendships or platonic companionship, I'm not even somebody who's ever wanted pets, even at my peak feelings of loneliness. But I used to crave relationships and the feeling of being loved, wanted, and accepted really badly. It was like being a stray dog. But even when I did attain that, I felt nothing, and decided to delete everything that anyone could reach me on and isolate. I thought I'd get lonely, but it's somehow only made me want to get even further away from people, to be honest. I'll probably try to make a living from art or something, so I can quit my day job and not have to interact with anyone at all, and also just to be able to show my oshis I appreciate what they do without throwing money at them.
