>>84274929>always loved to sing>in 3rd grade i used to post covers of Selena Gomez on youtube>because i was getting gassed up by my neighbor who would listen to me sing to myself on the bus>i used to post speed paints on youtube too>after 3rd grade i got really shy and self conscious about everything i did and i literally nuked everything i posted>when i finally got the courage to do karaoke for the first time my voice was so strained even though it was like 10 people i cried at the end of stream >singing for me is one of my biggest insecurities, it's like baring myself out at my weakest point, you know?>during the course of doing karaoke there were always points where i would cry because i was embarrassed>i kinda hate i was such a baby publicly>but i feel i've grown a lot>my mindset has changed a lot because i am so inspired by the people around me>when i came back from my hiatus i felt kinda lost as to what i wanted to do going forward because i had accomplished a lot of goals i had set for myself>doing what i do without having any goals or any dreams would burn me out ngl>i really sat with myself and contemplated and really thought about what i wanna do>took a lot of inspiration from the cool people around me>honestly im kinda proud of myself>also i want to be more eloquent because to the average person that was probably word saladthat's the same person who played unedited acapella raw vocals for you at the start of stream btw
>*knock on the door*>it was essie_sis she might have been told essie streams by essie_mom>but she is not that nosey, she just hates vtuber>essie_bro is the one who sill ask a million questions>*whispering the whole schedule*>ending streamEssie raided Zenya
