>>34570155i fucking wish i could man, my current options are either descend into this spiral more or just kms. these meds do fuck all but make me feel like shit. i honestly think im beyond help dude, just wishing someone would kill me really because i cant do it myself. im so fuckin far into this shit i no longer feel emotions for my fellow man. the remorse i used to feel is no longer there, and i fear one day ill take a life and feel nothing. can you imagine what thats like? what its like to feel like everyone is turning against you? it feels fucking horrible. i cant tell whos a friend or who isnt anymore because of it. i cant say anything that will justify what ive done, what im doing, or what i will do. i fully accept any contempt held for me, its all i deserve really. this will likely be the last you hear from me, as i will either call it quits or do some crazy shit idk, whichever seems more fun
