>>69888394she was definitely aware having been into guro for a long time
but there's a chance it's actually not sexual at all in her eyes
she talks about it a little in her presentation stream on grotesque
and then there's all the goony movies she chooses to show on discord
either she is confused about what she is into
or she is not ready to admit it to herself yet
but the tension is there in every rape scene she shows, and there's been at least one per movie
excluding her recent kung fu panda arc
