>>64511458Well, not everyone can be able to post here all the time. I hope things are going well with work and all that though.
>>64511911>Newfriends and new ritual posters would appear from time to time.True, i forgot some people but those were the ones i was able to remember from all the way back to october/november when we still had more activity/life in here.
>Don't isolate yourself. I actually you being here.I mean i try my best not to do that anymore, but if my depression gets bad and im being too much of a doomer with the things (like its the case a lot lately) i say i feel like i bother people with my presence and despite how often i talk in walls of text (blame it on possible autism or just me being isolated most of my life for that) i still feel like any word i say bothers people more and more.
Im fully aware of how stupid that way of thinking but i feel like my presence alone is enough to bother people at times and thats usually when i fuck off and isolate myself as i feel like people are better off without me. Im pretty much broken in that regard, but if people in your childhood constantly treat you like your presence alone bother people it does fuck your self esteem/sense of self worth which for me is likely unexistant at this point. I need to move and get therapy already. Question is if i have the energy to keep going until i find an apartment as the stress keeps getting to me more and more lately. Im not someone to easily give up but everyone has a breaking point and 5 years of costant stress gets to you at some point. I just need a break from the stress, but i cant get any in this apartment.
>>64512135For the most part i guess so, we probably still have more life in this thread than it appears at times.
>>64513832Wrong, im literally the worst poster here and people would be better of without my presence! okay i exxagerate but my brain does think among think among those lines at times and i dont think i can ever fully fix that.
>>64515457Alright then, i wasnt fully sure if you were the same kiaraposter or of the other ones we used to have.
Unrelated but god do i hate doing mass replying like this, been busy for a few hours though. 