>>52107589Oh, but it is. I used to be like that too, for something like a decade or so, then the army and just generally being tired of giving a fuck changed it. It's easy enough to keep sinking deeper into depression, but it takes a little willpower and a task simple enough that you can complete it to start building that confidence back up.
You start small and you work your way up. Specific steps may vary, but here's what can work for a start. Clean your room, the mess is fucking with your mood. Start running, extra lung capacity never hurt voice-centric endeavours. Make a healthy sleep schedule and force yourself to stick with it, your brain functions better that way. Go through a vod and pick out entertaining moments. Watch a streamer you like, note how their stream is structured, what sort of content they push at what point, how long it lasts, which exact assets they needed to make it happen, take notes. Make up a list of tasks broken down to as trivial of a level as possible that you need to complete to improve your stream. Complete those small tasks one by one to get a shot of self-esteem and an understanding that you're making progress. Hell, here's my current list. Everything on it is under my control, and nothing's /#/ related, since numbers are heavily luck based in the end.
This is how humans are wired. You're not going to feel any more worth it without proving to yourself that you're good enough to complete something, and from there on extra self-esteem will make it a tiny bit easier to do the next thing. It's a long and tedious process.
