>>16882183I FUCKING HATE THIS REALITY SO FUCKING MUCH. I COULD BE THERE WITH HER. TAKING CARE OF HER EVERY NEED. FUCKING CLEANING HER ENTIRE APARTMENT, COOKING FOOD FOR HER, TAKING HER TO THE GYM EVERY SECOND DAY SO SHE GETS HER CARDIOBUNNY EXERCISES, MAKING SURE SHE TAKES HER VITAMINES, MAKING SURE SHE DOESNT OVERDO STIMULANTS, BUYING HER GROCERIES BRINGING HER FOOD ON A PLATE DIRECTLY BEFORE HER MONITOR WITH A HUGE GRIN ON MY FUCKING FACE. MASSAGING HER AFTER EVERY STREAM, AND FORCIBLY TAKING HER TO SHOWER EVERY NIGHT. BRUSHING TEETH WITH HER AS SHE HAS A SLEEPY LOOK ON HER FACE. ID FUCKING WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO MAKE SURE SHE GETS ENOUGH SLEEP. ID FUCKING MAKE SURE SHE GOES ON REGULAR CHECKUPS AND EATS BALANCED DIET FULL OF PROTEIN.
ID FUCKING NUKE A COUNTRY TO DUST FOR HER, AND SPIT ON MY MOMS FACE.
But im not doing any of that, and each fucking time i hear her hurting, or slurring as she pretends to be tired instead of just admitting in her beautiful voice that she's fucking drunk it hurts me so fucking much. I hate this fucking reality. I escaped from being a schizo over fictional girls and now i cant think of anything but 1 real girl who's been making me radiate with smile, and motivates me to push fucking forward through this shitstained life fucking slowly destroy herself.
Ill fucking make it, and ill fucking do whatever it takes to be with her you niggers, and i will make sure she never suffers again.
