>>99862625Its easy to get caught up in stuff like this, especially since you're probably on the spectrum (not an insult, I think most of us are desu). Try to take a step back and shift your perspective. Smoke some weed or something if you can and think it over, it can help with that imo.
There's nothing inherently wrong with trying to make the best of an opportunity, depending on how immoral they're being about it. If they're also vtubers then it is relevant to them, and if they're gaining viewers from it then presumably that's content that their audience is looking for. People like to see different perspectives about topics that interest them, like how people like to watch different reactions to the same anime episodes. Some of them might be questionable people, but they're just doing what they can to better themselves within the sphere of what they enjoy. Remember that it's a hobby to us but its also a job for them, you can't really blame them (unless they're being cunts about it).
Since you recognize that this isn't a good place to be for you or your oshi, try to direct that energy toward something productive instead. Think of ways that you can help your oshi's growth. Make some content, like taking clips and posting them in forums or discord or even try making a clip channel (just make a new account to do it if you want to remain more anonymous). Make some fan art and spread it around, or even memes. Just talk more about your oshi to spread awareness and keep her in people's minds. Link her streams when she goes live. Try to think out of the box too, like putting out ads, or making some things to put up around your own city, or pull some fun stunt like those people that send plushies to space. There's a lot you can do instead of letting yourself go into this unproductive downward spiral.
/vt/ really can be bad for your mental too. Try some other threads or forums, or discord, or taking a break from it altogether. Try to get out and be more active, make an effort to eat and sleep better, that might improve your mental and change your perspective on it's own.
Or just try not to think about it so much. Try not to compare to others. Even just bringing positivity into your oshi's chat can be helpful to her.
