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Hello, yes, liaschizo here. Sometimes I get lost in the moment of viewing Lia. In the best case scenario my memory is patchy at best and the flow of consciousness style of posting related to liaschizoing means im not actively recalling or recording any of the experiences I talk about. Because of this when Lia layers in reference to liaschizo posts I hardly catch them in the moment. To some degree I am thankful for this because I can more objectively enjoy for myself the uncontextualized experience. This is of course in the passing remark of Lia generating the conflicting emotion of little sister blurting out something inappropriate at the table with the Rinmama OF content story effortlessly spilling out before the evenings deep dive. Usually it's hours later, unbidden that the connection seems to be spontaneously made and that extra personalized touch shows itself. I usually have to wrestle with this for awhile or perhaps chew it over is a better expression. I always want to resign it over to simply being my delusional schizo tendencies creating connections where there are none. What man could handle the alternative of actually being called out by Lia like that? Let alone the raw expenditure of trying to determine her intentions if it were true. An impossible task in any capacity let alone one so far removed from rationality as this. So the strap gets a little bit tighter and more of your thoughts turn to Malware and what the future holds and how shes going to pull it all off. I can't find the words to get into the proper performance she put on tonight regarding the topic she selected but was lifted by her confession of willingness to subject herself to it for the animatronic bear. There's something about listening to the way Lia produces narratives and the complete disconnect they have from trackable realities that tries to put the focus just past her eyes into her head trying to imagine what it must be like to speak the things she does out into the world. Just a performance, anything can be Malware but I really enjoy Lia's most. I'm looking forward to her next three performances, revisiting time with Sex Cat, the wonderful experience that will be her interacting with PAM and delving into another "male on stream" desensitizing moment, followed by what we all hope will be an interesting ASMR experience.
I can't help but get caught up in the wider company wide arcs and recursive story lines, the convergence of co-mingling themes and experiences. The Pippa signing off mini yab itself was the perfect emotional call back to Lia's donothon karaoke set song #2 and the beautiful work she did closing out of that song with her own broken voiced monologue. The abrupt unscheduled money making venture with Pippa really threw me for a loop and the number played back so strongly into Lia's own experience. Coupling this with Rie's follow up sad girl twitter posts creating a solid block of emotional solidarity among the Rinkou aligned bloc of PC. Lia really is so kind and generous providing us with everything that she does. I can't wait to see the conclusion to this weekends activities and how she handles everything!
