>>34955882I don't want to be stuck in this quagmire of depression forever. I've encountered enough femcels, as well as decent women, to know there's, something out there. I don't know what, but I can't just stay sitting in my basement forever.
My cousin has a wife, for example, and she's such a kind angel who helped that broken bastard get his life together, that if anyone called her a whore to my face, I'd go absolutely fucking ballistic, knowing all the shit he's been through and suffering both of them endured.
Marins and Raphtalias do exist, and if my bipolar menhara cousin could find one, I can find someone who's decent.
It's just after a lifetime of mixed signals, abuse, belittlement, dismissal, etc, I'm just fucking scared of reaching out anymore.
Besides, why should I? I live in a libshit area, feels like the second any girl gets to like me, she'll find out I'm slightly right of center, and go ballistic on me.
