>>94708150In a home that essentially looks like a curated hotel room there are so many little pillows on a couch nobody uses that even if you wanted to use it you couldn't. The decorations on the walls were all purchased from the same place at the same time. The silverware all matches. The dishware looks so delicate you're nervous to touch it too roughly. Everything is sanitized while also reeking of a clearly artificial smell fuming out of an expensive candle or two. In this environment I feel the intense desire to leave. It's not welcoming to me at all. I can't live in a dollhouse where nothing can be moved or touched without a disapproving look. The distinct lack of personality is unnerving; like I'm being surveilled or I'm supposed to be standing in a line.
I only post this to help you understand that what is cringe and uninviting to you will not be the same for everyone else. I would much rather be in a home where someone displays things they actually care about. I can ask them about it, and have a conversation with them where I get to vicariously experience the joy they have inside them, relate to them, and share my own interests and joys. Even if what they love is fucking stupid to me, as long as it's something they're passionate about I can respect them for it. I sincerely pity your friends if you're robbing them of opportunities to see these parts of you. Like I mentioned before, it's like you're governed by shame and you're trying to hide the things you like because you're afraid people won't like you if they knew.
