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I used to be fandead. Rushia was my first oshi when I got into Hololive in early 2020.
I spent so much time pretending it was all okay, I fought for her in the catalog trenches, I patrolled these streets reporting miguel yabs and dox baits.
It was all for nothing, and my world once vibrant with the color of love had faded to a dull grayscale. But I think I'm finally starting to heal. It still hurts, but the longer it goes on the less I care. I can't say what the breaking point was, maybe it was seeing Aquatan leave, maybe it was one too many dramas, maybe there never was one at all. I went for nearly a year hardly watching any streams.
I've finally started to let it go. I've decided to start loving myself instead. I just hope I can reintegrate into Hololive proper.
