>>97973314It never gets easier. Knowing that there's something out there that you love, but you can't quite manage to do because of things outside of your control. It never gets easier to wake up knowing that, deep down, you're not doing all you can. You're not fulfilling that potential, but you're not happier anywhere else. It's like something in you is being extinguished.
I am glad to be loved by so many people, and I am glad to love so many people. I am happy that everyone loves me despite my lack of talent, my lack of skill, my lack of ability. They look past it to see something else. What they see, I don't know. I'm just grateful to God, to the universe, to whatever, that I am loved.
It will be okay. It will be different, but it will be okay. Thank you for everything, Mumei.
