>>9492719Doing ok now, initially I thought I was pretty fine, Coco's graduation hit me harder upfront and I fucking despised Coco but once the "mental adrenaline" wore off it was just absolutely awful, worse than losing either of my grandparents. She wasn't my Oshi but she was in my top 3, by far the chuuba I could watch the longest without mentally fatiguing. The closest I had gotten to filling the void until recently was Okayu, who sort of fills the comfy niche but doesn't quite do it. Mumei however is like 90% of the way there which is probably as close as humanly possible. She's the only one that somewhat organically replicates both the soothing voice and the "off in their own world" feeling, just with more panic and retardation. Nothing will ever properly fill the hole though, save for her coming out of retirement in a few years (anykara would definitely let her). I still don't listen to her cover of Sobakasu, partially out of respect partially because the angrier tone of the original sort of fits my general state of mind/outlook on life better. I have mixed feelings about not actually watching a great deal of her, on one hand I feel like a dunce for missing out of a lot of good content while it was hot and fresh but on the other hand having my probable Oshi graduate in those circumstances would have absolutely ruined me. sry 4 blog post
