>>55982371Being a Gosling is miserable. No amount of denial will change that.
You are chasing something that isn't real. Your oshi may very well know you exist, she may even like you for some reason or another, but the likelihood that she will ever love you or return your feelings is virtually zero. Not completely impossible, if you want to be pedantic, but very nearly so.
Anyways, it isn't healthy and I know you know better, a lot of Goslings tend to be pretty self aware, which is good.
All this to say, there isn't anything wrong with liking vtubers (obviously) or enjoying GFE style content inherently, but anyone being completely honest knows that most people don't enjoy GFE and the chuubas who make it in a healthy way. This sort of dilemma isn't unique to vtubers either.
Try and get well soon anon. I wish all anons the best, Gosling or no.