>>83504288Yeah because I experienced this before. My favorite streamer, that brought me to twitch in a first place back in 2012, committed suicide in 2020. He was very community oriented. I guess I was a bit parasocial. I always thought that I will meet him one day and will be able to chat. And then he was just gone. It was such a bad feeling. All I though about was "IF I (ME!!!) TALKED TO HIM, IT PROBABLY WOULDN'T HAPPEN!". Eventually you just realize that even if his close circle of friends and family couldn't help him, how could some random retard from the internet help?
Survivor's guilt is real. Sooner you learn about it - sooner you realize that some things just out of your reach and you can't do much about it.
