>>16814791I feel the exact same as you, I don't keep stories that weren't well received and I ask AA to pull them from the archive (assuming they didn't critique it because of who I was, and not because of the story itself) after some thinking about it. I wouldn't write here if people didn't read my stuff, I probably wouldn't write at all if not for this place.
But the contrast is that I'm actually learning from criticism and that I at least can make people nut if it comes down to it. I hear my writing is good, my characters are well written, but the plots are usually fucked. And since smut doesn't have plot usually, it ends up not mattering as much.
I think if you're not taking the criticism to heart, really looking at what you're doing to make sure you fixed what you did wrong last time, you won't ever change. That should be obvious. I take the criticism pretty deeply, I ponder over the dialogue, rewrite it if it feels unnecessary or not in character, watch small bits of streams to make sure I'm doing right, if I'm explaining the setting well, I focus on things people said were lacking the last time, such as the smell of sex for example.
I think you have a passion for writing what you have, and not a passion to improve, and that's a big problem. And what it sounds like to me, you're really not putting in the effort necessary to change that. I really long for the day in which people will always like what I put out, no matter what it is, much like AA I suppose, but my main goal is drawing, this is my side hobby only. I have this real passion for wanting to get there, with the best, to say that I made it, to be able to show what I did to others with pride, that kind of stuff. I think in a hobby which has no reward other than self fulfilment from critique, if you don't strive to please the audience, to get good enough to do so, you'll fail, drop out of it, and never come back.
