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Forgive me, it’s late at night so maybe this is why I’m being so emotional and schizo right now
Sometimes I feel like I failed him, when Arupapa left, I felt like something else left as well. It makes me wonder if I just bought more merch or superchats, promote him more maybe he didn’t have to resort to changing his model. Did I do something wrong? I know he probably thought about it for a long time and he does seem happier with that model, but it still makes me wonder as well if it really was numbers that drove him to do this change. Maybe he wouldn’t have gotten this much hate now, if I pulled my weight as a Familiaran more instead of being quiet, make a Twitter account like the others to retweet and like his posts. It’s funny because when Arunii first appeared, I saw a bunch of Familiaran on Twitter saying they were taking a break from him and needed time to accept this change but I didn’t. But now it’s like those feelings are catching up to me. Like deep down it’s now settling in my mind, that he’s not coming back and I can only see him in old streams/vids. I just wish that he and/or Cover were honest about this like the others. 2 of the girl models made sense to change, another because the talent I think actually did say she and her audience disliked her model, and Astel changed his because of lore reasons and it paid off in the end. Why is it only Arunii that has a SORT OF shush case? And why on Earth did they advertise it like a temporary outfit instead of a redesign in the 2nd Act? I don’t know, I don’t think he’s the only case. I’m sorry I can’t think of one right now. I felt like I did something wrong in this scenario.
I guess I just needed to cry and grieve in a passage cause now I feel better. Now back to loving him in the morning.
